It's Good To Question Everything, Right??

Today I had my first real moments of questioning the practicality of me being able to generate enough income teaching yoga in this town to live comfortably. My day started out well enough, had a nice class at the Peaks, then dropped off some rack cards at Elevation Vacations where my good friend Big Ray is going to add a link to me on their website as well as including my rack cards in all their welcome packets for every arrival! I was very happy about that, but when I had two people come to what should be the most well-attended class I teach, I was disheartened.
Is it possible that this is just an extremely expensive way to fail at something that is not meant to be? Do I have the funds to invest in building students and clients over time? Will I need to find another space to be able to teach at the prime times this current studio cannot offer me? Even if I succeed here, will I earn enough for the kind of lifestyle I have grown comfortable with in the past several years?
Those are all the doubting questions that bubbled up today, one after the other, some actually overlapping and in all capital letters! And there underneath all that is this odd sense of security, this feeling that as happy as I am right, how can this not be right? How can I keep getting people in my classes whose worlds are expanding right in front of my eyes, and not feel that this is what I am supposed to be doing? I am the first person, maybe ever, in this town to offer yoga to people that truly need it but have never gone to a class before because they were intimidated or unsure of what class to go to, or were self-conscious or felt they weren't limber enough. And even though they aren't flooding my classes (yet) the ones who have come are immensely satisfied, which makes it immensely fulfilling for me. Way more than I could have expected. It has to be right, right?
I leave on Sunday for 4 days of teacher training with Desiree, whom I last saw in Hollywood, Florida, if you will recall, and I have a million questions for her about teaching and I am so so grateful that I have been teaching for these few weeks so that I know what to ask when I study with her. And then I need to start getting to some other instructors that will be in the general area this spring, to recharge my studentship and get some good practices in. I wish there was a strong Certified Anusara instructor here, but Marc will be here in two weekends for a great workshop! Very happy about that.
Well, that's all I have today, just a bit pensive and thoughtful. What I really need is a good practice. I will get two in tomorrow if I play my cards right. Oh and a good haircut too--that always helps!